Trigger warning for an (Un)healthy amount of cursing, self hatred, severe want to go fucking hurt somebody, the urge to be an awful person, and self harm.
My stupid fucking mother decided to bitch about me not being in bed. She left the door open and I fucking hate when the door is open so I go to close it. Only issue is that I knocked over a cup of water onto what was likely hundreds of dollars worth of magic the gathering cards because I’m a lazy slob who won’t properly sort them. I am currently trying to save them and get them fired with minimal damage but I doubt it’ll work. All this shit is happening 11:00pm on a school night.
I fucking hate myself for leaving that ticking time bomb but I also hate my piece of shit mom for being a nosy bitch. I fucking hate her guts most of the time nowadays. I want to self harm just to prove a point in my hatred but I know she is so stupid she’ll just sent me to some stupid fucking psych ward where they’ll pump me full of drugs.
#Losing my shit
desert hollow
final olive
I think i can relate to that since my mom has been treating me quite shitty lately as well and yeah, i always self harm because of it but on parts of my body where she and no one can see. That’s my only escape from her and my stupid thoughts. Yeah, don’t know if this helped but this is what i do.