So my dumb ass decided that I was gonna stalk my ex friends tiktok account. This was lame ass behavior ong. I cant believe I fucking did this anyways. I went and looked and was happy to find that she has good reliable friends to depend on. I still feel immense guilt though and I wish it would legit leave. I was a terrible friend for her. I was in the worst state mentally when we were friends and I treated her poorly. I hate that I did that. Eventually toward the end I made several apologies even though I didn't know exactly what I had done wrong bc she wouldn't tell me. She told me she wanted space and my dumb ass didn't know exactly what she wanted so I asked for more detail and she got mad. Eventually I figured out she meant zero contact. So to make this easier for myself I deleted her off all social media so I wouldn't accidentally click on her stuff. Anyways. The matter of the fact is I have done bad things and my guilt eats me alive. I wish I was a good person but it's hard to believe I am when I hold so much weight on my shoulders. I dont even get why I can't move past this either. It was literally a year ago. Wtf is wrong with me.
#Am I Crazy??
frank bolt
remote fulcrum
So my dumb ass decided that I was gonna stalk my ex friends tiktok account. This...
I’ve done this entire schtick myself it’s complete bullshit from them when they completely refuse to engage with you even after a year. Some people who you think are fiends will toss you at the soonest sign of not being “normal”.
frank bolt
I’ve done this entire schtick myself it’s complete bullshit from them when they ...
Well I am autistic and she did say that when she was around me she felt like she was babysitting. It was also like my first friendship and I was just happy to be treated like a human ngl.
remote fulcrum
Well I am autistic and she did say that when she was around me she felt like she...
Greetings fellow autist
frank bolt
Greetings
remote fulcrum
Well hopefully they won’t be too stubborn.
frank bolt
Nah I am pretty sure I am never gonna talk to them again ngl
They are the reason I am scared of going to school in person
remote fulcrum
That’s good
frank bolt
Well hopefully they won’t be too stubborn.
yeah no my only worry is that they think I played a mental health victim card or smth like that
remote fulcrum
If you know that they won’t be a good person leave them alone
At least in my experience some people can be very be spiteful.
frank bolt
but I guess they can think what they want freedom of thought
remote fulcrum
I won’t be able to talk much more but I can talk in about 2 hours.