I cut for the first time

[formal meadow]

I hate myself. My mother makes it worse she reinforces the ideas in my head that I’m a deviant and must be fixed. She makes me think I’m defective. No she doesn’t who the fuck am I kidding all she wants is for me to clean my goddamn bed god I’m worthless.

I cut above my kneecap barely drew blood. Fucker stings but it ain’t too bad.

[stuck dawn]

I'm sorry about your mother. You're not defective, and you don't need to be fixed. You're perfectly valid, and as someone who's also autistic, I can understand the struggle. But once you fall down the rabbit hole of self harm, it's so much harder to get out. You're not worthless and you do matter, please don't hurt yourself.