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I wish i wasnt me anymore
Like i wish i could just be someone else, ive messed up way too many times and i just cant stop overthinking about everything, my heart keeps racing and then i feel like i cant breathe anymore, i feel sick whenever i eat smth so i just give my food out to people at school so my mum thinks i ate that day even though she keeps telling me that im 'wasting away' (im sure af hope so) idek what to do anymore.
Why am I completely uncapable of being annoying normal person, why do i have to panic and choose the wrong option, why am I the one always left out, why am I me?
I keep getting thoughts about ||kms|| and ||sh|| , and honestly, if I ws told I was gonna ||die|| tomorrow, I wouldn't be mad or upset because I know I deserve it atp I hate my life.