sacred bison
I'm new to this so please bear with me So I've been depressed now for over a year now and its gotten to a point where I was thinking about just ending it I was so close to doing it then I thought about putting it in my bio I forgot what I put in my bio back then, then this guy came telling me to not do it and that's when we talked to each other at first it was all about me venting until I started slowly getting better then we had fun together there were times where he asked for my personal infos my name yes I told him my real name and then there was this specific day where he said he asked me my chest size(I'm still pre hrt) so I made up something and said 33B then he said he wanted to date me and all that and he said he wanted to be my boyfriend thinking I was a cis woman and so I said yes because I'm already started getting hooked onto him then after that he started getting freaky at this point I started thinking it was a big red flag so I told him to stop and he actually listened even said he would do anything just to make me happy and then I had the idea of telling the truth that I'm trans to him so I asked him what do you think about trans people and he instantly asked are you trans? I couldn't answer at the time (I was scared) so I said I was just curious and he said I wanted to know the gender of the one I'm dating that's the bare minimum and I felt pressured then I finally revealed the truth that I'm trans then he asked why u didnt tell earlier? that's where my heart sank when he said he's straight asf then he said I'm traumatised as if I'm some kind of a monster for him to be traumatised then I well have a nice day onwards dww you'll meet the true one for you someday then he just coldly replied with ttyl now I'm here just heartbroken what's worse is it hurts but I couldn't shed a single tear I cant even cry its just stuck in my chest the pain
this just sucks a breakup alongside my depression?
sure we're only together for 3 months and sure he was freaky but he cared for my feelings too and he was my first bf
it hurts I started to actually have feelings for him
if I said anything that I shouldn't have said please lmk I will just delete it or just delete the message itself also please...I need someone to talk to...thank you very much for reading this far
steel moss