I've been on and off hurting myself for years. yesterday i HAD 2 people threatening to hurt or kill themselves if I ever left them. I felt like it was my fault. I wanted to cry but i couldnt feel anything. So i c ut myself, the blade was to oblunt so i replaced it. I cut deeper than ever, after over a full day i can still see the flesh and it is not dry. I told my friend but its complicated with him and everything sucks. I faked sick today and i have no one to talk to. I feel like im going to amount to nothing the way my life has gone recently. It hurts so much to live day to day but recently it bores me. I want to end my life because i have nothing. i need someone. but people being nice to me makes be feel horrible about myself.
#**TW: SH, suicide** I don't know what I am, I don't understand anything, I can't feel
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frosty helm
Oh ml I wish I could hug you. Ik you don't know me and im not trying to be creepy or make you feel bad intentionally but I want to help you through whatever your going through. I know what it feels like to be in a pit of hell and not have anyone to talk to, I've been through the same shit. I want you to know firstly that you are loved even if you don't think so. If im taking time from my life to type this message then I definitely care about you. I had a friend a few days ago k ill themselves and I dont want you to do it aswell. I really want you to stay on earth for me ml. I want you to know that things will get better but it may take some time. I have gone through most of the things your going through rn and ik it fucking sucks rn but ik it will get better, though it took about a year for things to get better for me. I'm not saying it will for you but im saying it will take time. 3rd I don't want you to hurt yourself, $h is like drvgs. When you start, you can't stop. Ik its going to be hard to quit but progress is progress. If you get a day clean of $h thats amazing!! I'm running out of time and I rly need to get to bed but I am all ears tomorrow if you would like to vent to me abt anything you're going through and I will listen and try to help. Gn ml ❤️