dense halo
It's getting hard to not relapse again. I've been sleeping later and later lately; last night I went to sleep at 3 am, the night before that at 6 am. Tonight it's 2 am and I might not go to sleep till like 4 or 5. I hate this so much. I'm feeling sick from not smoking. I'm feeling like I'm suffocating as I lie here on my phone, just mindlessly scrolling, watching movies, YouTube, or TikTok anything to keep my mind occupied. Anything to not smoke. I don't know what to do.
I hate this so much
And the worst part is my brain won’t shut up Everytime I try to vent about this telling me my problems aren’t significant or I’m just looking for attention by typing my feelings out… i don’t want to feel this way anymore and i probably should see a therapist or something like that but I just can’t bring myself to talk to one… I’m gonna try to get some sleep now night
I’m gonna go insane
But I have not smoked 🍃 in like 5 weeks some I’m kinda proud in just suffering