Struggling with sh, to put it simply 🤷

[willow nest]

Tw, incase you couldn’t tell:)
I don’t know what to say, really. My leg just stings and I’m tired. I honestly don’t know why I waste my time trying to help and be kind to others. I truly don’t. But I do it anyways. It’s frustrating at times, especially when it comes to people I consider my friends or family. I had a friend whose been talking to someone who does not care for them. I know this for a fact because of things that are not okay at all happening, the person’s behavior, and just the fact that I’ve seen how so many toxic and nearly abusive relationships start. The sweet talking, the presents and gifts, asking for “small favors” that are a huge disregard for very important and intimate boundaries. I’ve seen it. And I fucking told them. I told them that what that person is doing is a huge red flag, that they will only get hurt in the end, that that person does not truly care or understand in the way they think they do. What does my friend do? Disregard and rudely dismiss what I’m saying. In the ear and out the other. I’m fucking done. I’m so exhausted because they’re not the only one who has done this shit. I’ve come to the conclusion that I just won’t help anyone anymore. I won’t give my advice. I won’t share my experiences to let them know theyre not alone. I’ll stop. It’s clear I’m not wanted or appreciated. And that’s fine. I’m done being tired and frustrated. I’ll have no friends and spend my teenage years alone if it means keeping my peace. Even if I get lonely, at least i won’t have to deal with anyone anymore. I apologize if this sounds negative or angry, but it’s truly how I feel in this current moment. Angry towards myself, for not realizing this sooner. People don’t care or understand, they never will, and that’s okay.

[tired laurel]

first of all, that friend sounds a bit stupid, but maybe just let him, if he wants to continue, its his choice, you have warned him, but you shouldn't just completely shut yourself of from the world, it aint gonna help you

[willow nest]

I’ve been thinking about it all day, and yeah, your right. I think i let one person get to me because this has happened to me multiple times w different people yk? Someone confides in me about something, I let them know that whatever’s happening is not okay and give advice, my advice is dismissed or ignored completely. Tangent aside, I shouldn’t shut myself off from the world, no. I’ll try to sort of meet in the middle between those two extremes then, and not offer advice unless it’s asked of me, or my offer is accepted?

I was thinking maybe telling them that I simply can’t offer my help if they won’t accept it in the nicest way possible lmao 😭

[tired laurel]

I think instead of just giving it when asked, you could also just give it, and as i said earlier, if the take it, its great, and if they dont, its their problem in the long term, but good to see you wont shut yourself down from the world