I doubt I’ve got serious like full scale dissociative identity disorder.
I feel like I I’ve got something because I most definitely have a roughly a half dozen voices in my head. But they are all still essentially just various shades of me. They don’t have different identities they’re all just flavors of the same agender autistic pansexual shitposter. I’ve certainly had some childhood trauma whether it was unrestricted internet access as a ten year old, getting called a couple slurs at various points, getting SA’ed to like a degree (I can’t describe it much here but I doubt I could get the person who did it prosecuted), and getting involved in some violence (physically fighting my parents when I was particularly angry or fighting my peers but never a full scale brawl with multiple punches).
Basically I’ve got a really negative voice that tells me I should kill myself and nothing more, a voice that brings up every little mistake I made, a voice that’s wildly existential and constantly yammers about death and life, a somewhat more constructive voice that gives me helpful critical and advice, a voice of reason that tells the others to shit the fuck up when they get particularly loud (this is honestly more of just what I actually consider me), and a very empathetic voice that cares for basically every living vertebrate and despises the sadness of death (the best voice and the most positive).
I’ve had episodes of extreme rage where I scream at people who aren’t physically there.
I should mention I’m depressed, I have an anxiety disorder, I have higher functioning autism (I’m not stupid or incapable of basic tasks just lazy), ADHD, and am rather irritable.
#Do I have D.I.D. Or like a lesser version of it
copper mulch
rare brambleBOT
OSDD1a? pDID? OSDD variants?
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rare brambleBOT
I aslo suspect I have OSDD1a but I'm gonna bring it up with my therapist in a few weeks.
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copper mulch
I have brought it up with my therapist and we’ve catalogued them as voices but not true personalities or different people.
copper mulch
I’ll check in a minute. I have my therapy in literally a couple minutes so I’ll check with them