I've been seeing a therapist for about a year and it doesn't seem to be much helpful for me. I have told basically all my life to her and I feel like there is still so much to tell, but I am still as depressed and lost as before. I have made a break of several months and recently came back to therapy.
What's confusing me is that I don't think I'm getting better, but leaving therapy makes me noticeably fall deeper. I feel like the simple fact that I'm planning therapy sessions is bringing me hope, but the sessions themselves don't help much. When I tried to tell that I want to do things differently she didn't understand and asked me the same questions like I needed to start all over again.
Also it feels overwhelming, I don't have a defined problem that can be solved by exposition therapy for example, it's more like a vague thing that results from all of my life and the world being shitty. Therapy is all about doing the work myself but in the end it just adds up to the pile of "I should do that" that never seems to get smaller. I honestly don't know how to make it work. Any advice?
#How to make therapy work?
upper vapor
Also I should mention that I am French living in Germany and we talk in German. There will always be a language barrier until I move back to France because there aren't any French therapist near me.
vocal burrow
maybe mention something to your therapist about you feel like this therapy you are receiving isn't helping you, pull yourself out of therapy for a bit if you can. Look to see if you can find other ways to heal
upper vapor
That's what I did actually 😭 I went 6 months without therapy because my therapist went on a break and then I didn't schedule another appointment for long. I felt that it was not good for my mental health and I was kinda relieved when I finally booked an appointment.
Now next year she'll take another break for undefined time, I think maybe I should turn to a psychiatrist instead, I have found one who gives diagnoses about ADHD. At least that could help me figure some stuff out.
That feels different though, I can maybe get medication from a psychiatrist but not a psychological therapy. I declined medication at first because it is risky, but it's maybe worth a try 