#overthinking (tw: mention of s—cide)

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fading cosmos
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one of my friends is in a bad headspace (im pretty sure), and he was matching with his gf (my other friend) and me and his gf were drawing and she wanted to use my art as her pfp so she unmatched with my friend, and i feel so fucking horrible about it because he probably thinks his gf prefers me over him, he put ‘second best’ in his bio and its making me worry so bad.

i dont want him to hate me or his gf, and im probably just being dramatic but i also text with his gf more than i do with him and i feel SO BAD i cant fucking do this anymore

i swear ill break up my friendships on accident because im so fucking stupid but i cant || kms || bc i have family and they probably care about me.

i dont even wanna live anymore i have no future, i hate my life, my pronouns arent being used, and now me overthinking this is making me feel even worse

so sorry if you couldnt read this well, im usually really shaky when i write stuff like this. any advice? :scag_nervous:

quaint ravine
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Take a few deep breaths and tell your friend how much you value them, and you are worried about losing them, that you feel guilty about the gf matching you and you eant to make sure things are okay with you both.
Also, as someone who has attempted a few times and survived... life can suck, and it can drag you down into the depths of despair sometimes. But, you can be your own light in the darkness. You know your family loves you, reach out to them, ask for a hug. Go up to a family member that feels safe and say "my brain is being mean to me, could you help me validate that im not a worthless pos?"
If your friendships are hurting you, join a club, or go to a regular event and meet people, even when you dont want to leave the house. And keep going. Because there's always something to live for, because you are the only you there is. And the world would be changes without you.

fading cosmos
keen bronze
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Firstly... Pls dont die u sound like a cute person and there is no need to commit cu1cide... And second... Can i add u and speak with u n private instead of here pls

fading cosmos
keen bronze
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Huh... Like no sus