lavish fjord
I just had the final night of my play. Every. Single. Time. I've been in the dressing room I got overstimulated and had to step out, before and after rehearsal/performances, any time it quieted down it got loud again immediately. Tonight, as we got out of costume everyone was yelling as usual. I ran out after I got my clothes on and sat down between some benches as the wall and just covered my ears. Two of the other actors helped me get to the costume closet where it was way quieter. I calmed down and helped put away costumes as one of my friends, we'll call her L, went to tell the other girls what was going on and ask them to quiet down. She came back really upset. Another girl we'll call A had apparently said "Well, she can step out if she can't calm herself." I got very angry and did something I have never done before. I stormed out of the costume closet and into the dressing ro where it had quieted down because most people had left. I started yelling "I have gotten overstimulated EVERY TIME we have been in the dressing rooms! I have had to leave the room multiple times!" I went on to tell them that they needed to stop screaming all the time. A said "Well do you want us to be completely silent?" in a rude tone. I told her that I didn't want them to be silent, I wanted them to stop screaming. She was really rude and I stomped put of the room again. My friends took me back to the costume closet, and I sat down. Two girls and one of the directors came in to put some costumes away, the director saw me crying and crutch down to talk to me. L and I told her what happened and she said I shouldn't feel bad for yelling. I'm still in the costume closet while they're all having pizza and cupcakes and candy salad because they're still yelling. But it's definitely quieter, I can tell.