I cannot express how much i am feeling rn

[winter rune]

I feel like i killed someone just for making a coincidental mistake that got me banned from the server
I'm so fucking done
Another shitty thing on my records to prevent me from becoming a mod
Is it unhealthy to be this judgemental towards myself
I'm just sick of it
I'm tored of fucking things up

I didn't want to feel so bad about myself

I never wanted to start over today

I'm tired of it

I shouldn't have even been here

I'm so fucking sick of my life

Why does every mistake i make lead to me wanting to end it there and then

I fucking hate my life

I wish it ended before i could speak

I have so much regret for my actions

Tomorrow everything would have been fine

But no i fucked up

Clicked the wrong link

Did the wrong shit

I should have stayed banned

I don't deserve to speak again

I'm so worthless

I just fucking hate myself so fucking much

I'm stupid

I shouldn't have even been alive