i think im being watched. its near constant i can feel it. it's scary. i dont want them to watch me.
yesterday i hid in the closet under a blanket until i felt safe
i dont know if im delusionalor not
i have new friends
but i cant trll them how i feel
they want whats best for me, theyre sweet and supportive, but
that hurts more than what i had to face with my last friends
i dont want them to comfort me.
i dont want them to validate me.
i don't deserve it.
its not true.
im manipulating them.
that's what my old friend always said.
and they'll hear.
they're watching
i dont want them to hear
if they hear they'll say im guilt tripping
theyll tell everyone.
i cant take it anymore
theyll tell everyone
they won't stop watching me.
they won't stop
im so scared
im so scared
please, someone just end me...
i dont deserve to live
im a rotten manupulative guilt tripper...
i love my friends but i cant bear the fact im guilt tripping and manipulating them.
i guess i dont realize it.
i don't know what normal friendships are supposed to be.
please someone save me
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i think im being watched. its near constant i can feel it. it's scary. i dont w...
This right here is definitely an anxiety attack.
I have them every now and then, more often than other times sometimes. I can assure you, Whoever you think is watching you and/or judging you isn’t there. Nobody pays attention to other people, ever. And if you think you’re being watched by someone like around your home, that’s also anxiety at work.
I’m sorry you have to deal with this. I recognize a spiral when I see one, I’ve had these similar episodes. I’m here for you if you need someone to help you out of it next time, I know the feeling of being watched and judged.
You aren’t a manipulator I’m sure. Needing help isn’t attention seeking or manipulation. It’s just needing help.