How do you get rid of the feeling of being a second rate friend...

[errant trellis]

It's a really complicated situation I got in. I don't want to hate my best friends for leaving me, and I don't want to express my anger towards them for not inviting me. They didn't invite on something that has been going on for a while now. It wasn't anything serious, it was a server. I feel frustrated at everyone especially to myself for being a stupid and angry friend. They apologize to me for... Forgotten about it and it made me really mad... My other friends got invited but not me...

And now, I feel like... At fault... I'm not a friend anymore and I wanna cry... I feel like I shouldn't really express myself being mad at them... I can't express myself

[dusk sigil]

now, dude. from my point of view, this is SO not your fault. for your "friends" doing something that didn't involve you is not your fault. that is their fault. you don't have to express your anger towards them, yes, maybe if you still want to you can do it a different way. through art, writing, some way to get it out. you shouldn't be crying that much and caring that much about friends who don't seem to care about you. you shouldn't care about people who don't care about you. I understand being angry because of that. that's ok. you aren't stupid or anything like it. you can hate whoever who want. it doesn't matter who you hate to anyone else, it matters who you hate to you. there are plenty of other wonderful people out there who will SO want to be friends with you more than those people did. so many. keep your head up, you aren't at fault here. stay safe. 💙