I do color guard, and the stress is killing me. At this point my normal thoughts are just suicide, and I've been wanting to quit. It's very demanding and I don't think I can do it anymore. I always feel so exhausted, having to deal with my friends issues as well. I'm demanded to push past our limits and I had a meltdown yesterday during drill. As much as I love performing the standards to have everything down are eating at me. I also have the feeling that I have to be perfect at literally everything. What do I do?
#I'm so done. TW: suicide mentions
robust island
Another thing; my friends hurt themselves and now I'm always worried. This one girl whenever I mention something like for example (a part of my skin peeled off on my finger, not from cg) and this girl said to me "Girl, when I was 4 my brother and I were playing in the bathroom and he slammed the door on my finger, the skin was peeled all around"
fading sundial
I do color guard, and the stress is killing me. At this point my normal thoughts...
You should talk to one of your parents, coach, or counselor about the pressure you feel. They can give you the rest and support you need.
You might also set boundaries with your friends. If you’re uncomfortable with them sharing things that upset you, gently ask them not to do that because you’re sensitive to it. If they don’t want to respect that, then they don’t really want to be your friend.
Your autonomy is important, and you should try to keep people around you who respect your bubble.
robust island
You should talk to one of your parents, coach, or counselor about the pressure y...
Thank you, I really appreciate it🫶