#I miss my friend

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mild aspen
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I wrote this letter for her but she still ignores me. (letter does not fit in here i Post it in the comments.

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I was walking trough this World with horrible thoughts. I hated people for being who they are. I was Homophobic and Transphobic.

I made a Reddit Post alot of Girls commented under that Post you where one of them. I saw the Transflag in your Profile but you where nice to me so you somehow caught my interest. I really liked you and i was ashamed of my past. I lied to you that I have not been transphobic and homophobic for a while now. In reality you where the reason i changed. Im so happy i met you. I was a proud Christian, and I believe that was one of the reasons why I hid my love for you and lied to myself that I didn’t love you. When school started again, I was very stressed, and we never talked anymore.

In the next months where we did not talk alot happened in my life. I reverted to Islam the best decision in my life. Since im a Muslim i was way more open about supporting LGBTQ. I decided to open a LGBTQ friendly clash of clans server. You never playded clash of clans but i invited you. That was when we started talking again.

It did feel different this time we talked about different things. We had deep talks about Religion and Politics but also casual talks about our life. I fell in Love with you again. I was sure you are the Girl Allah has chosen for me. I spend a few months reading what different scholars in Islam say about marrying a Trans girl until i finally found a way where i was Sure i could marry you.

I wrote you a love letter and you rejected me. I could not handle it. I said horrible things to you which broke our trust for ever. I kept insutling you for days because i only felt Anger.

This happened 2 months ago. I think you hate me now. I still regret what i have done. I still think about you. Im sorry. Im afraid i will never see you again. But thats your right. Its your right to leave me alone after what i have done to you.

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You are an amazing girl. I hope you have a beautiful future. I will always pray for you and be your biggest Supporter even if you see me just as a Horrible Weirdo.

lunar ingot
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mild aspen