oak falcon
I'm a 17 yr old girl and I'm struggling with Undiagnosed Anxiety, ADHD and some other things that I could have but aren't sure of yet that are mental disorders,
At the age of 7 -13, I had terrible depression and had 2 buffers to help me, I am Undiagnosed with this but that's the only thing I'm sure of, I was bullied for my Undiagnosed ADHD and weird quirks and tendencies, I have a counselor in middle school but it didn't really help much, she was nice though, the person who helped me was my mom the most.
When I went into high-school I was all alone in a different school but I was happy cause I liked the classes and I was gonna move schools after that freshman year to see my best friend N0##, d
Little did I know this would become a misery zone
The school i go to is small and everyone has groups, I was traumatized as a young age so I don't egt along with people my age or skin color as I am mixed with white and African American, I get along with teachers but my medication only does so much and I can only keep up so well, I rock A's in almost all my classes but barley, after sophomore year is was all down hill because even if I cried alot sophomore year I still had my friends
My friend this year wants a break suddenly because she's struggling a little too but my struggling point is she's friends with my friends too and I'm not allowed to speak to her at all she looks at me like I'm vile a little but I cried for 7 days straight, she means so much to me and I'm so horribly alone, I resent going to school unlike my usual love to school
The thoughts of self harm have started flooding back in and the bullying reminders have flared up once again, I wish to be happy again and I'm desperately looking for a therapist but in the west where I'm at, everyone needs therapists.
cyan chasm
