TW:suicide, SH

[hollow jolt]

I'm 13

What is wrong with me

I can't ever eat.
I can't ever think.
Mom said she'll get me a therapist to clear my sociopath mind, as a joke, what are you talking abt?

I've wanted and needed one can't you see?

I try to show you.

I lock myself in my room thinking it'll go away but darkness seems to find me somehow.

School sucks.
Teachers should understand that.
There content suck.

That's all this world boils down to.

Were practicly in a simulation and some people didn't watch the tut.

Why can't I just do it.
Just k!ll yourself already, its simple

I've got three friends and I like both of them so much( not relationship)

My parents and grammar are so toxic.
They want to help.
They want to fix my face.
I have acne.
Is it a crime to have acne?

Is it a crime to have a womanly physique?
It's not my fault I have bigger beasts than everyone else.
That dosent mean that you get to make fun of me for it.

Why does she have to gaslight me?
As soon as i get home from my dad's I'm sad.
I see him 3 days, every 2 weeks,.
Of course I'm gonna miss him.
But I'm with you the whole time, I'm sick of you.

She read it.

She read my diary..

She thinks I'm a bad person

I'm not.

I'm just... sad

Why dosent anyone care.

[nimble oracle]

I'm very sorry to hear all of that. I know how it feels to want relief from this life. It sucks. A lot. But life, including yours, is too valuable and short to just have it ripped away. And as for your appearance, fuck whatever lies you've been told. There is absolutely nothing wrong with acne, having a larger chest, or any other body feature, and I hate to hear that you've been taught otherwise. Also, the fact that you had your diary read is just messed up. I'm sorry that you had your privacy invaded so rudely. You aren't a bad person. If you need someone to talk to, I'd be fully open to listen, if that's what you need or want.