I feel like i shouldn’t be eating anymore, every-time i force myself to eat, i feel miserable, i hate myself for it everyday, i have tried to stay clean but the need to relapse is so strong i can’t even hold myself back from it, the urge to just HURT myself is eating at me, i cant ever find friends who actually like me and when i do they leave me out or ignore me like i have never existed to them, i miss my friend and have no way of letting them go and no plans of letting them go, i may seem desperate but they were all i had as a good friend, but they just didn’t want me.
#Tw: SH and ED + MORE
gusty beacon
I dont want to eat anymore just because im told to.
And all im told is “just eat” thats what they dont understand. i DONT want to.
lavish lintel
im so sorry if this sounds out of touch
but you can try taking the approach of not why but how
focus on the little things in life
lets take eating for example, if you are trying to eat some soup think of all the little things that make it up(i hope this is not disgusting) the process of making it, and all the other things. And how consuming this soup makes all these little things come together like a painting or a photo. i hope that this will work for you. please reply to this when you can, seriously i dont want anything bad to happen to you
gusty beacon
lets take eating for example, if you are trying to eat some soup think of all th...
I just cried over this, this is very helping