#Something's seriously wrong with me

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fresh gate
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I think I'm bipolar or have DID or SOMETHING.

I can be in a state where I feel like shit, wanna hurt myself, and my interests completely change to psychopathic style... things.

I can also be in a state where I have my normal interests and I just generally feel like shit.

I can be in a state where I feel overly.. happy which makes me question my sanity and well.. feel disgusted at my emotions.

Honestly somethings seriously wrong with me, but... idk what to do. I'm disgusted at all of my emotions, especially my psychopathic and overy happy ones.

What are your thoughts?

hybrid bluff
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hybrid bluff
# fresh gate I'm 14.

Yeah probably hormones kicking your ass.
I’m the same age as you and I’m pretty sure hormones are a partial cause of my irritability.

fresh gate
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Well it’s better than the alternatives.
I’m not a doctor and my medical knowledge is fairly limited.

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Can’t really give ya much advice

hybrid bluff
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By chance are you doing estrogen or puberty blockers?
If you are then I would kind of doubt it being hormones and instead it might be mental stuff.
From a bit of brief reading I’ve read the testosterone released by male puberty (spoilers is a big chunk of text I don’t want to distract) ||you are a girl, I’m not saying you’re a boy I’m just saying that your body is still… I’m trying to not sound like I’m misgendering you but your body if you’re not on estrogen or puberty blockers is currently undergoing male puberty|| can cause mood swings and stuff like that.

hidden haven
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You know, considering how accurately this describes me as well I know this probably won't help much, but I'm 16 and this sounds like exactly what I'm going through. I'm not sure if knowing you're not alone helps you, because this post does sound exactly like me and I don't really find comfort in knowing I'm not the only one. I hope we can both start figuring it out and feel something that makes sense :)

hybrid bluff
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Yeah I got similar shit as stated prior.

hidden haven
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Not that I think we're experiencing things exactly the same, just thought I should take advantage of the off-chance that you'd find comfort and reassurance in knowing that

hybrid bluff
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Funniest thing is the goddamn voices in my head that call me slurs man (or woman).

hidden haven
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hybrid bluff
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This feels really uncouth to talk about in a mental health section if you want to chat more it’s DM’s

fresh gate
fresh gate
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..

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I just learned that all my IRL friends are fake.

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they just... left.

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I was sitting with them and walked away for a minute and boom, they all split up from each other and left.

hybrid bluff
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Oh… shit