Friend drama and school

[lyric valve]

Lately I have been feeling extremely down , my ex bsf keeps saying that my panic attacks/anxiety attacks are fake and that im doing it for attention, and i just want to be seen, but I get them randomly and I feel like i cant breathe.

She also keeps saying how lonely she feels even though she sits with her friends every day while when I sit with mine I get left out, not talked too or they go somewhere, say they will be back but they don’t and I sit alone all lunch and break..

[smoky parrot]

I’m no expert but they seem like a horrible person and they don’t understand the struggles that people face

[lyric valve]

They have been doing this for 3 years now and they know we’re not friends and they just keep bothering me

[long jay]

tbh as someone who has been in therapy for years, you should cut contact with all of them and find new friends, its hard but it will get better, I PROMISE! concentrate on yourself, school/work and ignore them, its not weird or embarresing to sit alone either, what i do when people give me weird looks i either ignore them or give them a reason to give me weird looks. tbh my whole mindset is just, "you dont like me? i will give you a reason not to like me" as people will always try to use you or not like you. you got this and i swear you will find someone to trust again<3

[lyric valve]

Thanks, it’s just I have dealt with bullying and it had made me really uncomfortable and insecure about myself and every whisper or look makes me overthink a lot and I get really upset and anxious. I would sometimes cry in class silently (im at the back and my teacher dont really pay attention to me) she also was being a bitch saying that I don’t need these communication cards bc I don’t have autism or ADHD even though when I get too anxious I go non verbal. She was also saying that I don’t need extra time bc I don’t have “special needs “ even though im getting referred (i have the test for extra time next week)

And basically all my friends who I was close with thinks I may have autism and I asked my mum to get tested but she said no and for the cards she (ex bsf) said not to trust a Sen teacher but her 13 year old cousin bc they have autism and the teacher might not understand it and her cousin might know more about it. (Basically the teacher let me use them in school and my ex bsf thought that it was stupid)

And she keep saying oh I can ask “her cousins name” for u bc shes autistic and she might know the symptoms, but everyone has different symptoms, she said that while I was talking to a friend and she was listening to the conversation. And she keeps going on about it , about how her cousin knows a lot of thing more than grown adults

[long jay]

im also getting bullied since 2020 but i learned to ignore it and be the "weird" person i am, luckily i got diegnosed with multiple dissorders and i dont have any friends anymore, but this is not about me, your ex bsf seems very narsistic and mean, she is complety wrong as her cousin wont know more than a adult (who also knows things about the topic) you should definitly tell a adult you trust.

[lyric valve]

I try to but when they say it to her she denies it all and turn it onto me and makes me look like I’m the bad person

[long jay]

i have anxiety so when you have a panic attacks and cant breath, try to distract yourself, breath slowly and count your breaths, i also get non verbal sometimes so i told my teachers about it and i can just write it down for them, you could try that too

[lyric valve]

Yh some of my teachers know about it but some dont bc they are the type of teachers who don’t really do anything about things if u know what I mean

[long jay]

what i would do is just be that "bad" person and make her life a living hell but i would not do it if you cant handle being blamed for stuff as you will get blamed for anything

[long jay]

yeah i know what you mean

[smoky parrot]

Tell hem to leave you alone and that u don’t want them around you

[lyric valve]

I also had a really bad anxiety attack or panic attack (i dont remember what it was bc it was a while back)in English bc we had to do speeches and say it infront of the class. I started panicking so I was able to go outside and as soon as I got out I broke down crying and I was shaking really bad and my chest felt tight. I was able to calm down bc of one of my friends and I was able to do my speech after class, and my ex bsf said that the teacher was bias bc i didnt habe to email her to do it after class likw how she had to get her mum to email in while I was sitting on the floor crying and shaking. The same day (she said that a day after it happened ) after she said that one of my friends said that I was properly panicking Thats why I was able to do it after and my ex bsf said to my face “oh do I need to just shake my leg bc to sits what you always do to get out of doing presentations or speaking infront of the class”

[lyric valve]

I did and they still do it

[smoky parrot]

Tell the school and tell them to F off

[lyric valve]

I will try but my school doesnt really deal with anything (my care and guidance don’t help much she only favourites the popular kids and not the kids struggling)

[long jay]

yup narcisistic behavour from your ex bsf, literaly just tell her to f herself, i would do worse istg i dont know you or your ex bsf but i want to scream in her face

i really cant tell you anything else about cutting contact with them except telling them to f off as that is what i did

[lyric valve]

I blocked her on everything and she knows I don’t want to talk to her but she still comes up to me

I did tell her to F off so many times

U can still message but I am going to sleep now so I might not reply straight away x

[long jay]

okay, try and sleep well<3

[lyric valve]

Thank you, I’ll try x

[smoky parrot]

Oh sorry to hear that

[lyric valve]

She didn’t do anything today but she did keep giving me dirty looks

[smoky parrot]

Oh sorry to hear but probably just ignore her

[lyric valve]

Yh I will try to

[lyric valve]

She said that she has ocd even though she has not been tested for it and she said that her doctor said she might have it but not be tested because she has “absent seizures” and they were saying that she might have it

She also said that she was getting tested for autism and adhd even though she said that she didn’t think I have it and that she thought that I was saying that I might have it for attention

And she is apparently so high up on the list when the lost can go up to a year

[smoky parrot]

That is attention seeking atp

U are not in the wrong she is

[lyric valve]

Thx

She has guilt tripped me for ages

[smoky parrot]

It’s just a horrible person unfortunately

[lyric valve]

Im having the urge to sh…

[smoky parrot]

Don’t

It’s not worth it you will get addicted like I was and it’s hell

[long jay]

i have done that for a few years and still can't stop, please dont start

[lyric valve]

I didnt do It

She just sent me a video about backstabbing her…

[smoky parrot]

It was to try to guilt trip you just ignore it

[lyric valve]

Ok I’ll try to

[smoky parrot]

How did it go?

[lyric valve]

She kept sitting next to me in school

[smoky parrot]

Lowkey tell her to go fuck off

ATP

[lyric valve]

She said that I don’t need extra time or an overlay even though I got tested for it and they said I need it and they gave me the overlay and it helps me read better

[smoky parrot]

Right now she is being a nasty prick if you feel the need report her to the school and say that it’s just that she can’t stand other people having reasons for help that she wants but doesn’t neeed

[lyric valve]

I will try to report her but she always lie her way out

[smoky parrot]

Could you get proof like recordings ect

[lyric valve]

I can’t , no phones are allowed in my schl

[smoky parrot]

Oh idk I’m sorry

[lyric valve]

It ok