I dont even know anymore.. :<

[runic zealot]

I used to cut once every two weeks, then once a week, then once every few days.. and I was clean for a month but rn I've been cutting multiple times in a row every single day and I really wanna cut for the second time today :<

[crystal slate]

Hey golduck, I’m sorry. I promise you, it won’t be this bad forever. Believe me, I 100% understand not believing that, but it’s true. Things are gradually improving for me, they will for you too. You’ll feel better. You just have to try to find good things in your life now, maybe even things that will come later.

I believe in you. You’re a very good friend and I want everything to be the best it can be for you.

[crystal slate]

If you have trouble finding those good things, ask for help. I’ll gladly point out some good in your life if you’re willing to tell me how your day is going, week, etc

[runic zealot]

... my day is kinda bad. I've been sick (But at least home from school) Binge eating, and saw my friend who... was buying a vape pen :< I'm scared they're gonna start vaping.

[crystal slate]

Anything else happening?

I’m sure there’s more than just the negatives

Well actually yes, school stresses you out, I know that, and you’re getting a break from it today

That’s good! I’m sorry that you’re sick, but at least you aren’t stressing too bad about it, just for today.

And the weekend is coming up, so you can get whatever homework you might have done and then try to relax

Also talk to that friend and see. I mean if they’re buying a vape then probably but it’s always good to intervene if they haven’t already started, or try to at least

Plus it’s always good to check on friends.

[runic zealot]

:< I'm scared though, cause tomorrow I'm gonna have art class and I'm gonna feel bad while trying not to cut my finger off using a paper cutter :<

[crystal slate]

Oh yeah I saw you said that.

It’ll be okay, it’s only an hour, and then you’re done with that thought for at least 2 days

[runic zealot]

well its 1 hour and fifteen minutes but yeah

[crystal slate]

Silly

[runic zealot]

(Thank god our grade nine is in the high school, so I have 4 one hour and fifteen minute classes instead of 5 one hour classes :I )

[crystal slate]

I have seven 55 minute classes

[runic zealot]

that sucks

[crystal slate]

It’s the same as 4 hour and 15 minute ones basically lol

3 are electives anyways, so they’re fun

And for one I just sit on my phone and do nothing. It’s literally an advisory class with no work so I don’t have to do anything but sleep or be on my phone lol

1 and I look similar so I changed it lol

[runic zealot]

I wanna cut :<

[crystal slate]

Well, don’t

I’m here for you to talk and distract you, at least for a little bit

I do have to go here soon but I’ll be right back with you to talk, and don’t worry, I won’t be disappointed or angry if you end up doing it while I’m gone. I understand.

But we can talk for at least about 10 minutes

I care about you, you’re a good friend to me and I want you to be safe

[runic zealot]

my head hurts :<

[crystal slate]

Ya been drinking water?

[runic zealot]

... no

[crystal slate]

Then please do that

[runic zealot]

I'm pretty sure I'm sick cause I'm very dehydrated but I dont wanna drink water :<

[crystal slate]

Dehydration sets in after just about a day and 1/2 of not drinking it

[crystal slate]

How come? I want you to drink water

Please do. If you can’t get yourself to drink a lot, even just a cup or half a cup will do

I won’t force ya though. I know I can’t and I don’t want you to feel pressured ever anyways

[runic zealot]

I drank some water

[crystal slate]

Just now or in general?

[runic zealot]

now

[crystal slate]

Thank you

I won’t force you to do anything else dw, that’s not my way of helping

I just wanted you to drink at least a little bit. I don’t want you having that kind of headache

I know they aren’t fun. I used to get them a lot as a kid

My silly self hated drinking water, thought it tasted bad

And tbf Ohio water is trash so I wasn’t wrong lol

[runic zealot]

so you'll have to go soon

okay

[crystal slate]

Maybe not, we will see

[runic zealot]

... im confused

[crystal slate]

Hey, it’s okay. I’ll be back sooner than you think if I do leave

[crystal slate]

I have to meet my counselor and she might just let me chill after we do cause she’s cool and doesn’t mind if I skip the second half of class in her office

And it’s not like I’ll get in trouble lol

[crystal slate]

Is the leaving what’s confusing you or is something else doing it? Sorry I’m also confused lol

[runic zealot]

I was confused from that lmao

[crystal slate]

Oh lol

[crystal slate]

Yeah I meant because of this

[runic zealot]

Yeah

cool

[crystal slate]

Okay yeah I do have to go

[runic zealot]

baiii!

[crystal slate]

I’m sorry Golduck, I’ll talk to you here sooner than you think though!

[runic zealot]

Its fine