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hello my name is Fawn and im a sapphic and lesbian demigirl. I have been in here before and I just need to vent again.
I really am on the verge of ending it. I have a note, I cvt myself, im not sleeping or eating well, etc. I don’t want to be alive at all. My household is full of yelling and school is stressing me tf out. I go through everyday with a smile on my face and acting like im fine even though I’m on the verge of not coming to school the next day. Im at that feeling of hopelessness where when somebody mentions my future and in my head im just like “I probably won’t be there until then” or smt like that. Im at my lowest. Idk what will happen to me by the end of the year, but I might not be here. I hate myself so much and I wish I was dead. I don’t trust men that much to the point where I only have 2 male friends. Im scared of myself. I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I get yelled at everyday for the stupidest shit. Ik trying my best. Im trying to not end it. I might not be here in a week, but idk. Im tired. Ive been manipulated, bullied, and more i don’t even want to mention. I go through everyday like I don’t have sc@ts and cvts on my legs. I go through everyday like it might be my last. I need help, but I’m too scared to ask for it. Please just help me. Talk to me. (Sorry this is a lot)
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