jovial elbow
I wanna cut my arm. I wanna cut it to see the blood. I wanna see myself bleed. I wanna feel the pain. I shouldn't want any of it. I do. I cut to blame myself for things that I'm not responsible for, and to feel... something.
(Well I did cut so.. :< ig)
hoary compass
Hey Golduck, I’m still here for you and I care.
I understand wanting to hurt yourself. Ive never cut myself, but I’ve punched myself in the head so many times I’ve basically got a permanent welt on the right side at the base of my scalp. I understand it.
I don’t ever want you to feel alone, and if you need reassurance that the things aren’t your fault and you don’t deserve this, let me know, because both of those are true and you deserve so much better.
inner vapor
It's normal for you to wanna feel that way especially if you keep thinking those same thoughts repeatedly over and over again. I'm glad that you're able to realize and acknowledge that you shouldn't want any of it, and thats a good first step! I'm proud of you for being able to recognize that Goldluck! If you haven't already, there are alternatives that can help with it, like drawing on yourself with a red marker. It may not help, but it gives the visual of blood. I hope you know that you don't deserve any of the hurt and blame of anything.
spring quest
I wanna cut my arm. I wanna cut it to see the blood. I wanna see myself bleed. I...
Hey again. If you ever want to chat about this, or if you need help with something related to this (dms or here), I'm here. Or random shit to take your mind off of things. I really just don't want you to do this to yourself.
Also, another thing instead of cutting yourself, you could pull back a rubber band on your wrist or finger or whatever. Just something that doesn't make you bleed. Of course, doing neither would be preferable, but that's just a little bit more tame.
Also you shouldn't blame yourself for what other people do. That's their problem or things that they did. Not what you did.
You're a whole different person from them.
It shouldn't make sense for you to do that to yourself when they're the ones who did it.
And even if something happens that is out of your control that actually does happen to you, and people get mad at you or something, that's not something you could've stopped!!! I usually just become frustrated at them for blaming me for something out of my control. Maybe you could take your feelings out on something else other than cutting. Like punching a pillow or something?
jovial elbow
I have school today and I really wanna.. bring a blade to cut with at school :<
welp baiii peoples, I'm leaving for school
inner vapor
i really hope you didn't!! be safe!
jovial elbow
i really hope you didn't!! be safe!
I didn't bring a blade
jovial elbow
You're a whole different person from them.
I regret not bringing a blade, I wanna cut really bad
:<
spring quest
I regret not bringing a blade, I wanna cut really bad
hmm.. I mean, I don't want you to hurt yourself, but if you really need to to feel better, are there any rubber bands there perhaps?
Also, have you told anyone about this yet? You don't need to now, and I don't want to pressure you, but I do want to know.
inner vapor
I didn't bring a blade
Im glad tou didn't
jovial elbow
I was in art class and the art teacher told us about someone who cut off a finger with a paper cutter... :< I wanna do that...
(Edit) [wtf I'm insane thats crazy I dont wanna do that]
jovial elbow
Also, have you told anyone about this yet? You don't need to now, and I don't wa...
Haven't told anyone yet.
jovial elbow
Oh godd
jovial elbow
Im glad tou didn't
I cut 6 times in a row
inner vapor
oh my goodness..