I hate my body.. | Pridecord | Page 1

ivory rampart Sep 29, 2025, 1:25 PM

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I hate myself. I hate my body. I hate everything. Whenever things become too much, I'm too shy to ask for help or to ask for a break. I cant fucking live. I'm worried that I'm bipolar or something cause shit can be okay or horrible and idfk help. I wanna cut. My arm scars are healing and I want fresh ones.

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I can handle life sometimes but... I feel disgusted at myself. I ate food and want to barf. I saw (Sexual images) yesterday and.. I'm disgusted at myself for ... liking it and wanting to see more. I hate myself. I dont love myself. Sometimes I can forget about all my issues for a while but ... especially during the night I make horrible choices and hate myself even more... I'm insane.

void portal Sep 29, 2025, 1:40 PM

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well why do you hate yourself

ivory rampart Sep 29, 2025, 1:47 PM

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Cause I feel fat and useless and fail my friends

void portal Sep 29, 2025, 1:48 PM

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Do you feel all that

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or do you get told that

ivory rampart Sep 29, 2025, 1:53 PM

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I feel it

void portal Sep 29, 2025, 1:55 PM

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well have you done anything to change it

ivory rampart Sep 29, 2025, 1:55 PM

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To change... what?

void portal Sep 29, 2025, 1:55 PM

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those thoughts in your head

ivory rampart Sep 29, 2025, 1:56 PM

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No...?

void portal Sep 29, 2025, 1:57 PM

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why not

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im sure they dont make you feel happy

ivory rampart Sep 29, 2025, 1:57 PM

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I dont really know how

void portal Sep 29, 2025, 1:58 PM

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well as a pessimist myself

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I prefer to use those negative thoughts to motivate me to become better

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If I wasnt there for my friends in the past

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Ill try to keep the ones I have close

ivory rampart Sep 29, 2025, 1:59 PM

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I use them as reasons and justifications to.. hurt myself

void portal Sep 29, 2025, 2:00 PM

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see the difference in our mindset

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justification to hurt yourself

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when a yakuza member dishonors his gang thats when he hurts himself

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when a restuarant owner starts taking money from the mob thats when he might get hurt

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Have you even finished highschool

ivory rampart Sep 29, 2025, 2:02 PM

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... I'm 14.

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my arm is a nice cutting board.

ivory rampart Sep 29, 2025, 2:04 PM

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void portal Have you even finished highschool

So... no.

void portal Sep 29, 2025, 2:04 PM

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You are 14 and your arm is a nice cutting board

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There are 14 year olds in gaza who are happy to drink gasoline from a car to quench their thirst

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Sure you may have a hard life atm

#I hate my body..