atomic knoll
you know that feeling when you find someone and you’re so interested in them and they’re so interested in you and every message from them your heart jumps and you respond right away and it seems like that for them too? that happened but it’s a year later now, i hate that they’re my main happiness source and without them i feel lonely because i know we both have separate lives but they seem so uninterested to talk to me. every response is like 10+ mins later when back then i used to feel bad for responding just 2 minutes later and i know 10 mins isn’t much but comparing it to how it was scares me and i want to see what happens if i just don’t talk for a while? a few days? would they care or see something off or am i just here? i get if they’re busy but gosh it hurts my heart so much and i feel so annoying of how much i want to talk to them.. how do i redirect my happiness source?
i also have undiagnosed looking abandonment anxiety or somewhere along those lines (i’m not self diagnosing it’s just something like that) idk i just wanted to throw that in there, i’ve been looking for ways to cope for that but therapy isn’t an option because i’m not able to :/
i’ve also already asked them about it they’re getting bored of me or if i’m being annoying and all were no but.. i just feel something’s off?
static hatch