Mostly a vent, and I know this isn't as bad as some other people here (bless yall), but look, it's been very evident that my brain works different than what it's normally supposed to, there are so many patterns that line up with Autism and ADHD, and I'm visibly struggling to function as a regular human-being every day, and I'm struggling to keep up in school and I fear I'll never make it out of high school
The process to get a diagnosis where I live is lengthy and unreliable, especially considering I'm high-masking and slipped through the cracks as a kid because they tried to convince me I'm normal, and apparently they barely take into account adults, so I feel like I straight up missed my only chance because I was stupid and believed I was neurotypical
I tried looking for help, but upon learning this from my psychologist (guy's fine, dw), I took the wrong ideas and had a serious panic attack, and in the process, I lost control and...... ||picked up a pair of scissors and pointed it to myself, and I was left with three cuts on my left shoulder for like two weeks|| and I fear ever getting to the point where I'll do that again
I'm fine, I haven't felt the need to it again (thank fuck), but it kinda sucks how I get easily dismissed and feel the need to overexplain myself, because nobody ever listens to me, and I wanted confirmation that I'm not just lazy and incompetent
#(TW) At times I feel that I missed my chance
silent dove
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vagrant idol
Mostly a vent, and I know this isn't as bad as some other people here (bless yal...
well a lot of people find it hard to function in this "normal" society
having to sit everyday for hours on end and stare at a screen for pleasure , work , and education was never what humans were intended to do
and when you stray that from "norm" people are more than happy to mock you for it.
silent dove
Nobody seems to get it, do they? I KNOW there's more to me and my brain, finding out what it is won't make my life worse, it might make things better for me because it won't be entirely a me problem, but NOOOOO, just because I don't fit narrow stereotypes one-for-one, therefore I am perfectly fine or that I'm exagerating or that I'm too sensitive
Parents and teachers think I'm normal, just lazy and incompetent, when I know it's NOT TRUE
I'm tired of this bullshit of being stuck in this limbo of zero answers
silent dove
Maybe I should clarify that by no means was I a bad student, my grades were actually decent and I was very obedient, but now I simply can't function, and I get all of these complaints left and right when I'm fighting for my damn life out here trying to get a better future for myself
vagrant idol
Nobody seems to get it, do they? I KNOW there's more to me and my brain, finding...
Well if you are in highschool there is nothing much I can do for you
My best advice would be to find a hobby to keep you happy and focused