I'm just so scared. For the past year now I've felt like my brain is fighting itself and I just can't tell anybody. I don't feel fully safe at home due to the fact that my parents know pretty much nothing about me and if they were to actually know me they would probably disown me. I've just felt trapped for so long. Only one person knows that I'm trans and she's also the only person who actually knows me and I thought things were going to be fine until she stopped going to my school then I started spiraling. The best part about her going to my school was that I could actually talk to her about my problems but since my room is right next to the family room and anyone can hear what I say if they are in there I feel scared that someone's going to hear. And now I'll walk past something like a knife and just think, "it would be so easy to end everything right here." And it just scares me. I wish I could get professional help but that's not realistically happening anytime soon and I don't want to die but sometimes it just feels like the easiest option
#Tw: suicide
loud orchid
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low lagoon
Suicide is never the best option.
loud orchid
Suicide is never the best option.
But it feels like my only option