#tw mentions of suicide and self hate

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viral wolf
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I previously wrote this somewhere else and just want to write it here just incase it helps

quick vent need to get shit out rn

I feel like shit. ever since I knew I was trans my mental health keeps declining because I keep overthinking like what people think of me what I should do and like what affirming care I might get. I know I want to get estrogen and maybe bottom surgery but idk about anything else I feel like I'm overthinking things and I just wanna be able to slow down and stop thinking for a while, last time I was able to stop thinking was 2 weeks ago and I desperately wanna stop thinking again but my body won't let me. I barely understand half the terms they use when I study up on bottom surgery and other stuff. Everytime I look in a mirror there's 2 results, "oh god I look like that? I fucking hate it" or "I want to kill myself oh my god" and I can't take it anymore I don't wanna die but sometimes I wonder if it'll be better if I was just, gone

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I cant upload screenshots so gimme a second

elfin walrus
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You are a good person.
It’d be a shame if you were to leave this place.
It might not be good right now but it will get better.

viral wolf
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ok I'm just gonna throw everything else I wrote gimme a second

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that'll take too long because I can only copy 5 things at a time nvm

elfin walrus
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You seem like a pretty chill gal.
You also are a girl. Don’t let any piece of shit tell you otherwise.
You are a woman.

viral wolf
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<3

elfin walrus
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You seem like a decent person based off your writing I doubt you’ve done much bad.

viral wolf