I DON'T KNOW WHATS GOING ON INSIDE MY HEAD AND IT'S SCARING ME I'M SCARED I'LL DO SOMETHING AND I DONT WANT OTHERS TO BE UPSET IF I DIED EVEN THOUGH I DON'T SEE WHY ANYONE WOULD BE I'M FUCKING SCARED I'M TERRIFIED AND I DON'T WANT TO TELL HIM BECAUSE HE ALREADY WORRIES A LOT AND I'LL MAKE HIM WORRY MORE AND I DON'T WANT TO DO THAT BUT I HAVE TO TELL HIM BECAUSE HE WORRIES OR I JUST LIE TO HIM AGAIN AND TELL HIM I'M FINE EVEN THOUGH HE ALWAYS TELLS WHEN I'M NOT AND PEOPLE TELL HIM IF IVE DONE OR SAID SOMETHING AND SO MUCH FUCKING DRAMA HAPPENS IN MY DAMN FRIEND GROUP I'VE CONSIDERED BLOCKING EVERYONE AND STARTING OVER BUT THEY'RE ALL MY FAMILY AND ILL LOSE EVERYONE I CARE ABOUT BUT MY DAD TOLD ME I SHOULDN'T RELY ON THEM FOR HELP BECAUSE IF I WERE TO ACTUALLY END IT NO ONE COULD HELP. HE BASICALLY SAID THEY'RE BAD FRIENDS BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T CALL THE POLICE WHEN I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF SO MANY TIMES BUT THEY AREN'T BAD FRIENDS THEIR THE BEST ONES IVE HAD AND ALL I DO IS HURT EVERYONE AND MAKE EVERYONE WORSE AND MAKE EVERYONE SAD AND WORRIED AND ANXIOUS I DON'T KNOW WHY ANY OF THEM ARE STILL FRIENDS WITH ME I'M SORRY I'M LIKE THIS I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M FUCKING SORRY I HATE MYSELF I HATE I'M LIKE THIS I JUST FUCKING HATE ME
#Scared + little venty-rant?
plucky flare
solemn ravine
omfg