#TW! Sensitive topics. I feel terrible

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proud ferry
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|| So I been sick lately, I had tea, my mom broke a lid of something to make a coaster for me . I don't know if she works hard and loves me or is really rude to me because she's stressed, touching me inappropriately is not an excuse for being stressed though. I also been feeling very well, sensitive and everything makes me cry. Someone is nice? I cry even. I just can't handle it, the world itself. I lost my month clean streak because of my shitty life situation. I feel so weak. I keep having derealizations, feeling emotions more deeply, epiphanies, and I don't know why. I feel the need to temporary sleep with no emotion, just as if I'm in a void.. I don't know if I feel nothing or if I am just absolutely emotionfull. I have been feeling left out by my friends, ever since the school year started I felt this way and it all begun that I felt left out, unwanted, ugly, miserable, like a third wheel. I always have to walk in the back, maybe even not get included, not being invited anymore because they thought I wouldn't come since a girl who insulted me last year came. I used to be the one everyone loved, it wouldn't be the same if I didn't show up to school. Now it seems almost they have a better time when I'm not there. ||

sterile chasm
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Hey. You're doing okay so far. No need to act like your presence is required 24/7 by your friends. If they care about you as close friends, they'd be there for you when you're at your lowest. You could try hanging around your friends and showing them that you care. Most of the time your brain is exagerating your condition. You can't know for sure what they think of you unless you talk to them! If it feels unsafe though, I'd recommend telling this to someone you trust

proud ferry