I’m probably fucking up my life and I don’t even know how to change it

[steady bear]

So let’s start shall we.
Tw self harm btw
Well ever since I was diagnosed with asd and adhd when I was young, it definitely changed how I thought and acted. Fast forward to secondary school, I knew I was bound to fail, I’m just a lazy shit who can’t do anything at school or at home, I’m stupid and can’t do anything right, I always jsut need help and this and that, my life is so full and so empty. Since now, I’ve resl started to hate myself for this. I’ve recently started to cut myself and I don’t regret it, there is no way I’m gonna change and I’m gonna keep being lazy and stupid and I’m gonna fail school and mess up my life and become an unemployed lazy bum.
So ya, my life is being upheld by just socializing and lazing around on games, being too stupid to do what I’m told.

Sorry if it’s not formatted well, idk how to do shit

I’m always overreacting and shit too, got a lot of anger issues

Doesn’t help to be mocked and bullied at school

[tame thunder]

Homeslice I feel basically the same.
The thing is that we could be so much worse.
Take happiness in the fact we at least aren’t psychopaths like Jeffrey dahmer. That creature was the worst type of autism that can happen. You and me might be lazy but at least we aren’t actively trying to make society worse.

I say this as someone who is also autistic and has adhd.

I’m hoping you read this

[steady bear]

I see

[tame thunder]

Well.
Do you have anything.
I hope that this makes you see that at least you aren’t worse.
You sound like a good person who just has motivation issues.

I hope you can learn an alternative to cutting.
Try snapping a rubber band against yourself.
Try chopping fruit or something and imagine it’s your flesh.
If you take none of these at least be careful and cut away from major arteries. Basically just avoid the wrists and neck.

Also you live in Europe hopefully in a country with good welfare. Even if you don’t get employed at least you have free healthcare i live in America and it fucking sucks.

[steady bear]

I mean well, I cut on the ankle

I feel like there’s only 1 way of things

And that I can’t rlly change that easily

I don’t rlly feel like I have anything rn

[steady bear]

Kinda close to the tibial artery but I think that’s deeper in

Ok I researched it is still deep relevant to where I do my stuff

[quiet root]

Hey! Don't paralyze yourself out of fear for your future. The world is in your hands and you have every opportunity to succeed where your brain believes otherwise - self-harm only distracts you from what you truly want to accomplish in your life. You're not stupid and you were never bound to fail, and it is NEVER wrong to ask for help!

[steady bear]

I kinda just feel obsolete compared to everyone