worldly hatch
I'm sorry for the bad English of my writing.
I hesitated a lot before writing this, my whole life I was seen as the one who makes everything a drama, that everything I say is pointless and dramatic, so I locked myself for years. I have some family issues, and every time I talk about my feelings, they just say that they had passed for worse when they were my age, that's why my feelings don't matter, so I decided I'd always have a smile on my face, because that's what they wanted. So years have passed and I just couldn't stand that happy mask anymore, I became angry and sad inside, I still trying to stay positive, but I just can't keep the smiley face anymore, and lately this is starting to affect me and my family, I feel that everything I do is making everything worse, that I am a burden to them, I really don't want to think about it, because I know that's not true, but that feeling is behind me, whispering to me every time, and when I am called "The one who ruins a person's day", this feeling gets bigger. I've passed a lot of things in my life, but for thinking that this is just dramatic like everyone says, I just keep my emotions to myself. I've never said a lot about my real self like this to anyone, is this dramatic?
proud dirge
