I hate myself

[warm hawk]

Tw: bullying, sh and susicide, abuse

I've lost so many people who are close to me. I get bullied for being myself. Im constantly scratching the skin off my arms. I wanna come out but I'll get disowned. I've tried to ||kill myself|| more than once because of how much pressure I have of being perfect. If my grades slip I get yelled at and grounded. I hate myself im fat and I have so much acne. I genuinely cant do this anymore. And I keep having these nightmares of when I lived with my mum and she ||would beat me and scream at me|| I cant do this shit no more. I actually wanna kms im not joking. There's only 2 people keeping me alive and im scared if I lose them I'll not give up this time and actually kms. The times I've failed its because I couldn't handle the migraine it gave me when I tried to choke myself.

[livid knot]

You got to keep going.
I’ve got acne too and it’s fucking miserable.
But things can always get better.
There are a lot of skincare products out there for acne.
You are valid in being a dude.
You’re a dude me and you are dudes we’re valid in being guys.
I might not be trans but I am a guy so I get the pressures of conforming and shit.
If you seriously need help I’d advise calling a hotline.
If you don’t need urgent help you can talk to me in dms or in this.

Also I’m sorry if if I potentially misgendered you it was hard to figure out if you identified as a girl or boy.