I haven't been doing great. I feel like my friends hate me, my family hates me, everyone does. Like I'm a walking punching bag for people. And when I actually reach out for help it doesn't help like I need it to. I've been to therapy twice before though I left both times due to personal reasons. But everything is crashing down for me. I've been snapping at my friends, having no motivation to do anything whatsoever. When I do I just end up giving up/getting frustrated and end up crying. It's happening more often than it should. And I'm scared that people are gonna leave me because of how I act. I want to change myself but I'm too scared to do anything. I don't want people to leave me. I cling to people I find comfort in Because i have separation anxiety due to my father. And at school when I'm by myself I can't communicate as much as I want to I get way too anxious when I try. I have to FORCE myself to ask someone to use the bathroom because of how bad it is. I want to change, get better. But I'm scared and not sure what to do. Ive been thinking about relapsing over and over again. I don't know what to do to stop these thoughts. I want them to stop. But I don't know how. I feel like people are laughing or making fun of me at every second. I want it to stop.
#Should I go back to therapy?
hollow rose
static ermine
I would advise going to therapy.