I miss when I was her beautiful smart cute child now I'm just a slave to her she thinks I exist to help her and be perfect but I told her she chose to birth me so I'll have flaws and she said "ur a lady ur gonna have to learn how to clean and u never wanna do anything" but I try and I tell her I love her everyday because she never tells me she never hugs me she just yells and orders at me I don't know why but this year I haven't gotten an ounce of real affection and by fake affection I mean she will hug me in public to make it seem like she's good mother but when I try hugging her , telling her I love her at home It seems like she wants me to go away and she values her phone more than me I say I need help but she's like yelling what do u want do it urself and it seems like she wants to control me ,and if I hear something from her I just hear rude and negativity I never hear from her "she's so smart she's so useful and tries her best" anymore like how I used to she doesn't spend time with me anymore and what I hear only now is that I'm useless rude or disrespectful but in reality it's I'm tired of her never giving me love a few weeks back my brother was sad and crying due to my mom also not giving him affection (she only gives genuine affection to my eldest brother and it makes me really sad) and he got comforted but I been trying to tell my mom please be nice in the most polite way I can but it gets ignored yelled at or sighed at I just wish I was taken seriously I just want her to know I'm an actual human not a mini her or a perfect doll and I have feelings and I can't take it from her without breaking apart and the sad part is it must've been something about me made her like this all of a sudden and I'm too scared to make big talk about it without her being all screamy she even gets angry while she talks to me normally I miss when she would talk to me in her sweet voice and say I love you but it feels like she's a new person now..
#I don't think my mom loves me anymore she hates me
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