Usually I do sh in another way around (staving myself, not sleeping, etc.) but I couldn't bare the thoughts and really tried to cut my arm, the cuts weren't exactly deep enough or wide enough to let anyone think I've cut myself a few hours later
But still, I know it still counts as sh, and no, I don't like the feeling of letting people around me knows that I'm cutting myself irl, I don't like the feeling of being worried
#Just tried to cut myself and it felt great
fluid lava
safe marlin
Don’t cut yourself
fluid lava
I won’t, not again
Mostly cause I personally doesn’t like the feeling of being cut and the obvious pain within
I like to just starve myself and force myself to not sleep more than cutting
elder ivy
I won’t, not again
Mostly cause I personally doesn’t like the feeling of being c...
Not necessarily better but we all do things that aren't good for ourselves. (I've tried those three and so many more myself so I'm the last one to judge)
keen igloo
I won’t, not again
Mostly cause I personally doesn’t like the feeling of being c...
I’m curious, why do you do any of that in the first place?
fluid lava
At first I was doing these without myself noticing due to stress, but when I realized it
I was already addicted to making myself suffer slowly (not the cutting part, I hate that)
keen igloo
What is it that you find addictive about those things?
fluid lava
The feeling of my empty stomach and how the acid inside hurts, how I can’t exactly think about anything negative if my mind is tired enough
keen igloo
Correct me if I’m wrong, but it sounds like you like it because it’s the only thing that can get your mind of everything else that’s going on.
fluid lava
Kind off, I think
Same with internet maybe, things irl just sucks sometimes
keen igloo
Dang, I can get that. (I often find myself hating reality), any particular things that suck more than others?
fluid lava
Can’t exactly tell which’s worst
keen igloo
I’d say sh since especially with stuff like under eating and not sleeping enough can harm you for your entire life even if you only do it now.
keen igloo
Which is why I ask agian, are there any particular issues that stand out as contributing factors to making you rather do this than have to think about them?