valid turret
I don't nessersarily need help i just need to rant ig. Everything about me is confusing, every thought and aspect of it, my sexulaity, my gender and how i view myself as a person, am i good for the person i am now or am i still a shit person for the things i once did? Am i just faking everything for attention? How does one even manipulate themselves into that if that's the case? am i just that good a manipulator that i've manipulated everyone including myself into believing im a good person? Is my family good people? i'd like to belive they are but they switch so effortlessly, i complain about how awful they are but 10 minutes later we're laughing as if they didn't make me want to d!e minutes prior. Is my school full of bad people or do i just see everyone that way? are my teachers really creeps or am i so paranoided that i just assume they are. Is it really my old friends fault or is it mine. Do i really feel more comfortable with these pronouns and gender or am i being influenced? Am i really that sick or am i over reacting. Am i really not going to resort to my unhealthy ways again? Do I really not care if i'm dead or alive? Am i even who i believe myself to be?
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