lapis cobalt
So I kind of feel bad for putting this here? Idk.
I have a ton of hobbies, like doing long jump, writing, art, etc. But I guess I'm not particularly talented in any of them. I don't quite meet long jump standards, I get amazing book ideas and then never write anything down, and I cheat in a lot of my art, which a lot of people don't realize. I was a straight A student in middle school, and now that I'm entering highschool, I'm realizing that I'm just... Average. My mom is somewhat narcissistic, but she has some good moments that make me hate myself for hating her. I love my romantic partner more than I think they realize, but I still think they deserve so much better than me, because I can never remember to say or do the right things. I'm kinda pathetic in that way lol. To my friends, I think they consider me the funny one, and.. well idk, I just think I'm a bad influence and I let out my thoughts by making jokes. I'm also a good listener for my friends, though all I want to do is say all of my ideas and thoughts and feelings and interests without being annoying.
I know there's probably a lot more that's wrong with me lol, but I might update this later because I'm an optimist and this is way too depressing for me.
The reason I don't want to put this here is because it sounds like I'm whining rather than venting and everyone else's problems are so much bigger than mine because I don't SH or have suicidal thoughts or anything. But people seem pretty supportive here, so idk. Ty for taking the time to read! <333
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