I'm so tired of pretending everything's fine. Bendy keeps checking on me, and each time I lie, it eats away at me more. What's the point? I can't keep this up forever. The weight is crushing me. I just want it all to stop.I see no future. No light at the end of this tunnel. The guilt of making him worry while I'm falling apart is unbearable. Maybe I should tell him the truth. That I'm broken beyond repair. But I'm scared - scared he'll leave when he sees how damaged I really am.The lies just pile up, and I'm drowning in them. What if I can't keep swimming anymore? What if I sink? I've been counting pills again. Just looking, not actually taking. But the thought is there. So persistent.I hate myself for even considering it. For being so weak. But I don't know how to stop feeling this way.
#need help
silent smelt
hollow barn
Sadly, you cant just stop feeling that pain. I wish it was that easy. For the matter of telling your partner, i would be honest, and not hide anything intentionally. If they leave, then they’re a fucking moron and didnt deserve you in the first place. Someone who really cares about you will be there for you, thick and thin. Never settle for someone that you cant rely on
azure junco
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