#2025 is shitty

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fickle heart
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This year has fucking sucked so hard. I can’t even describe it, it’s just been so so so so awful. Okokok lemme give you a break down

I was rejected from a school I dreamt of for years. Worked my ass off, hours,days, weeks I spent on that application. But nope rejected, one of the reasons was stupid. Some of the students there are put in charge of the group interviews and guess what! A lot for he people in charge didn’t like me because I posted a lot of like countdowns and stuff about my application because I was so hyped about it. But they weren’t pleased and talked shit about me because of it.

My grandmother died a few months ago and holy shit that hit me like a ton of bricks, May was a rough month, that entire week was filled with a funeral and memorials every day. And I’d also made a fool of myself in front of the entire school in a debate. On Friday I hung out with a friend/my crush and I was happy to take my mind off things, until he asked me if I was into him. I didn’t want to answer, I knew what came next and I didnt want to hear it especially because of how shit my week had been. But I caved and said yeah. I’m still astonished that he did that. Rejecting me while I was grieving!?!?

May was the month where I practically gave up. I’d always tried to think positive but I was just so tired, I keep doing ||sh|| and I can’t help it, things just keep happening and I can’t say ANYTHING about it. Not again, nono. Last time that happened I got ratted out to the school counselor and was sent to mandatory therapy back in 2023. I don’t want to go to therapy, I hate hate hate therapy.

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Continuation because it cut off: And I used to have a happy place, that was with my friends. But now all they see me as is stupid, they’re constantly shitting on me for being irresponsible and lazy and how I can never pay attention to things. BUT IM TRYING TO IMPROVE. They just can’t see that. In civics class I was gonna do a project with the same people I did it with last semester and they said no and that they wanted someone new in their group. Then in computer class the same thing happened and my friend, one of my closest friends said. “You aren’t that good working in a group”… I’m sorry?? I worked with her in a science fair project and literally got an interview with two medical professions and made a pretty good survey ALL IN ONE NIGHT, AND IM NOT GOOD WORKING WITH PEOPLE!? Everything I do or say, is dumb, and it sucks.

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I hope 2026 is better. Because this year has completely sucked

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Forgot to mention I think I might’ve also lost the friendship I had with my bsf, she’s been mad at me for weeks and everytime I try to apologize she ignores me. It’s my fault I know but it feels awful knowing our friendship might end because of something like this

loud sequoia
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I get what your going through. At the start of july i broke off with my friend group because they used to bad mouth a close friend of mine while i was in vc with them. Plus during late december i told them i was struggling mentally and i might ||kms|| and they told a friend who left the friend group aswell due to them bullying him too and we talked but during the call my cousin who is one of the egotiscal friendd messaged me and asked me what my friend said about them and when i join back call with them after me and the friend that left the friend group finished talked i was bombared with "What did he say about us!? What did he say about us!?" I didnt tell them nothing and said its none of thier business and lne of my friends said "Nah, I get you to talk with him and you cant tell me one blasted thing he said about us!?" It was from there i realized my ffiends didnt give a shit about my mental health at all. Thry did a bunch of shit to me after that but i wont go into detail about it. Right now, I dont have no one to talk to as often now but i want you to please keep god in mind and pray @fickle heart. I know it this year may look really shitty to you but i know it can and will get better. From what ypu said i know your a hardworking individual. If the people who rejected you rejected cause thry didnt lile you thrn maybe that school wasnt meant for you or maybe god wanted you away from those people and maybe your crush wasnt the right one if he rejected you when he knew you were grieveing and needed someome at that moment. I'll keep you in my prayers ❤️

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