#I'm tired of fighting myself.

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broken wharf
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I don’t really know how to put this into words, but I’m struggling a lot. When things get too heavy, I end up hurting myself, biting, hitting my head, choking, just to let out everything I can’t carry. I hate that I do it, but sometimes it feels like the only way to quiet my mind.

And my mom… she makes it worse. The constant transphobia, the way she talks to me, the way she refuses to see me, it all crushes me. Instead of having a mom who supports me, I have someone who tears me down for just existing as myself.

It’s exhausting. I feel like I’m at war with myself and at home at the same time. I just wish I could breathe without all this pain.
And I wish i had someone who would accept me just the way i am.

royal oxide
# broken wharf I don’t really know how to put this into words, but I’m struggling a lot. When t...

Hey, that sound like a lot to deal with. I can’t offer much more then some words, but here’s some that may help. Your mother doesn’t sound like someone who should be a parent. I know it’s not always the case, but parents should be supportive and a rock for their children. Do you find that a lot of your struggles with your pain are caused by your mother or does she just make it worse? Do you have any safe spaces where you live where you can go when things get too much at home or do you have any people where you live that you can talk to who support you? Is there any other things that you need to talk about and get off your chest? I’m here if you need someone to talk to, you should be supported by the people around you.

broken wharf
# royal oxide Hey, that sound like a lot to deal with. I can’t offer much more then some words...

Thanks for saying that… it really means more than I can explain. Most of my pain is because of my mom, yeah. She makes everything so much heavier, like I can’t even exist without it being wrong to her. I don’t really have anywhere safe to go, and there aren’t many people I can actually talk to. Most of the time I just keep it all inside until it breaks me. I feel really alone in this. But it helps a little to know someone is listening

royal oxide
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Is there anything you need to talk about ? I’m here if you need someone to listen

dark ginkgo
royal oxide
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Hey @broken wharf , just checking in to see how you’re doing?

royal oxide
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@broken wharf are you doing okay? Sorry to bother, just making sure you’re okay

broken wharf
royal oxide
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If you need anything I’m here

broken wharf