gentle topaz
Now I’m pretty darn sure I’m autistic but I tick all the boxes of severely under diagnosed. (Poc, afab, gifted burnout kid, rural school etc)
But when I can’t do things my way, whether that’s something as simple as needing to be on time or I just cannot speak in a way that makes people get what I’m saying- I get ticked. Real bad. and I don’t have a healthy outlet ig? So instead of being violent in any way I just cry and pull my hair (I don’t rip it out dw). My go to strategy of not getting mad is always to pretend it never happened, which I’m now thinking probably isn’t healthy. And it’s certainly not helpful in the middle of the moment. Ex- I’m in a convo that I cannot escape in a socially acceptable way. And by that I mean I can’t ever think of an exit that isn’t hanging up or just turning and walking away.
So with that life story out of the way- any tips? Breathing exercises are hard for me to remember sometimes bc it’s too much to think of numbers to count but maybe that’s the point idk? Stress ball is something, but mine sucks. Petting my dog is most effective but he’s not always with me. And usually having something in my hands just makes me want to throw it. Not my dog ever of course, but say the stress ball for example, or drinking water. I want to throw the cup yk?
Thank you for any response
cold trout