why is genuinely so hard to fit in why does nobody want to accept me as far as i know ive never done anything wrong to anyone. if i did, its highly likely a reaction to how bad they treated me first. its so annoying why do the shittiest of people get so many friends and get to have a loved one like what the hell am i doing wrong?
#uhm
obtuse pasture
ive always tried my best to be kind and polite to everyone
try to be friendly and all
yet i always end up being the one that rots alone like what the hell man
its so fucking unfairrrrrrr
like dude i had a friend who KNOWS i was being mistreated by our other friend, she says she cares and is worried about me, says she hates our other friend's actions yet still fucking sided with her
my life is full of idiots that just do NOTHING but LIE AND LIE AND LIE TO ME IM SO PISSED
wind tartan
I- I dunno what to say man 
obtuse pasture
ya dont gotta say anything, i just want to let everything out
im not even done yet.
sigh
fucking hell dude i get ignored everywhere too if thats not enough
so far i only have like
2 friends at most in my school rn.
everyones just fake
lowkey i dont think anyone can be trusted anymore
on top of that i got a disconnected ass family
literally just surrounded with problems left and right, i want to be alone and away from people but i want to have friends, want to be loved. what can i even do i like and dislike being alone at the same time
why is life just so unfair
like can you imagine the rudest, bitchiest person can somehow be someone's number 1.
yeah probably all just because they have good looks
dumb shits
digital ginkgo
I love you and you are good how you are 
wind tartan
I dont really have anything to say but if it helps I listened
obtuse pasture
i love my mom but i hate her so much
tbf i dislike everyone until they prove they wont fuckin backstab me
or prove that i can trust them for real.
i wish everyone who mistreated me goes through the pain ive felt and maybe more i wish theyd suffer so they know how i felt.
burn in hell
now that im seeing this again i highkey feel like im attention seeking ๐
west gust
You're not you just bottled it up for a while, please let it out it's better to express your feelings
My DMS are open if you want to chat 
obtuse pasture
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never will be able to find anyone thatll make me feel seen again
make me feel accepted and loved
something that even my own family wont do
visual dragon
im sorry for you
obtuse pasture
wind tartan
never will be able to find anyone thatll make me feel seen again
I mean who says where just gonna disepear like that 
obtuse pasture
makes me so mad
thats not what i meant but ok..
im so jealous of almost everyone atp
im getting tired
i hate this man
when i vent like rn and people try to comfort me i just cant get myself to believe what yall say is genuine
i think i just overthink too much
keep thinking everyones forcing themselves to tolerate me
visual dragon
i dont mind
obtuse pasture
ok
visual dragon
i care about everyones lives
obtuse pasture
im confused.
visual dragon
how?
obtuse pasture
nvm just let me be mad at everyone and everything rn
stuff just dont feel right recently ill get over it once im done
want to hate everything
hate it all for being nothing but shit
i just want someone who'll love me the way i love them.
and that someone is genuine
unlike that fuckin bitch who claimed she saw me as her number 1
the one who PROMISED we'd stay best friends forever?
okay all these backstabbing assholes are everywhere
i have no where to go
i wanna at least let my mother know how im feeling yet thats fucking impossible
she'll turn it into some talk on discipline bullshit or whatnot
not even helping
and when i got bullied? by a bunch of fuckers who are filled with nothing but stupidity and ego
she scolded me
scolded me for getting bullied
thanks mom. so fucking helpful.
im done im just gonna sleep now
done dwelling on bullshit i can just get over with
west gust
Its fine if you want to not talk but to let it all out you have to talk to someone, I wish you luck in life. You can't get rid of the pain by sleeping it off, just breathe okay? When you're awake you can talk to me, my DMS are open for everyone
obtuse pasture
i feel sick again, this stomach issue is endless istg
when will i ever get to be fully normal gang i cant even eat properly anymore
i ate so little for dinner today, and i know i have to eat more or whatever the hell i have may just get worse, but i cant at all
i get nauseas and i get a weird headache that stops me from eating all together
as if i aint skinny or malnourished enough this damn issue just wont go away for some reason
just as i think im doing alright again, it comes back
over and over again..
the headache is still there :C
i should try and eat some more fruit later once i feel a bit better so i at least get some nutrition
obtuse pasture
im back w more rants :3
just great gang moving to a new school did not help from escaping shit people ๐๐
had to deal with 4 ugly fucks of immature boys back in my old school
and now its twin bitches.
im just fucking praying that the fatass one didnt actually photograph me
like honestly WHAT is their problem with me i dont even talk to them??
like dude in class today i saw this fat bitch LOOKING AT ME WHILE TURNING HER PHONE IN MY DIRECTION LIKE BITCH YOU THINK IM BLIND OR WHAT
FUGLY FAT FUCKKKKK
Literally i KNOW shes making fun of me
i just dont know what part of me shes making fun about
Mind you the twins are fucking homophobic transphobic whatever with the lgbt they find it weird
Like bro when can my life be peaceful for ONCE
WHEN WILL PEOPLE ACTUALLY LEAVE ME ALONE LIKE HELLO???
LIKE FUCK DUDE JUST LET ME BE ME ITS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS OR ANYTHING
ARGHHH I CANT CATCH A BREAKKKK
I CAN NEVER HAVE A PEACEFUL SCHOOL LIFE AT ALL
SINCE I WAS IN KINDERGARTEN TOOOOO
I cant fit in in kindergarten, not many wanted to befriend me but at least they werent mean, Primary school i get fucking annoyed and sort of 'harassed' by a boy, like that hoe pushed me into a fish pond gang ๐โ๏ธ Then i get accused by another fucking boy that i stole his money. Middle school, I get into a fight with my so called "best friend" and at least made up, High school (grade 9) i have another fight with the same person and it was 10x worse. And then i get fucking bullied. These 4 fucks of boys that i dont think can be qualified as human humiliates me in the worse way possible and got almost the entire class to gang up on me. I change school now in grade 10 and i get these twin bitches.
This is actually insane man
Why cant god just tell me he hates me or smt
Like just let me die already gang its too much trouble and im barely holding on
I wanna be homeschooled now
Or maybe i should just sleep forever and i dont even need to worry a single bit anymore
Anyways thank this place for existing to let me say all these out
Haha omw home i cried in the van thinking of ways to ||kms|| ๐๐๐โ๏ธ
