pearl crag
For anyone struggling that would like help or just to vent or someone to listen my dms are always open. If you need me quick ping me.
Im a person that doesn't judge and is very open minded. Just be you
I know life can be really hard but having someone to talk to can make it a little easier so don't hesitate to reach out
Lots of love for everyone
hearty torrent
Message includes self-hate etc. Little warning:
|| Hey, I really struggle with self-worth. And I just Hate myself. Im gay, Chinese and have a cleft palate. And its really hard not to complain because the 3 combination is the worst and sometimes I wish I had like a down-syndrome so that I wouldnt be conscious about my appearance. (I know its sounds extreme, but im being honest).
I always try to compensate by helping other people. Im in so many mental servers online to help other people with their struggles. Its easy for me because its online and they dont see my face etc. Irl its horrible. Helping people is seen as creepy behaviour Just because I dont look normal. Especially with girls, the girls nowadays are very judgemental and their comments cut dieper than comments from boys.
And of course I take it over and since I gained consciousness I'm so hard on myself and Just hate myself. And its just so weird that I keep telling other people that its ok etc and love yourself. That stuff and send whole paragraphs of love messages and support and just like hate myself at the same time. And I have professional help, but its so hard to change it. I know I cant change all the 3 things, and I have been to so many dark places, and so many people just dont care in the real world. And I know that the world in real life is the world to be. I just wish appearance isnt the only thing, And I know that. But even I have a judgemental view about asians and lgbtq people. Its internalized so I cant blame them. Its so weird and wrong, but even I have it. I live in Europe and all the 3 groups that have these things and hated intensely or disgusted by. I just hate myself 3 times more than normal. ||
Its just to vent its okay. ❤️ Like I just have to survive every day and I know it will get better, but it seems like that just wont work on me. My advice is not enough for me. It helps other people but Im so hyper-self aware about everything. Not even that Im too harsh. I overthink.
pearl crag
Its just to vent its okay. ❤️ Like I just have to survive every day and I know i...
I completely understand you can always dm me if you want im completely judgment free