you will never truely know what choices you make
#How do you choose? How do you commit? I don't know.
rustic sinew
hallow pond
How do you choose if the things you choose from change to begin with? Politics change. Religion and conviction change. And hell, feelings change too.
I'm 35 and only began thinking about who I am about a year ago. Thought I'd be a cis man all my life. Thought I'd be hetero, too. But today? I bought typically feminine perfume because I think it smells nice on me.
The same with education, too. I took 3 courses in university and "wasted" ten years finding my path, only to end up with an apprenticeship in IT. I now have a stable job that's more fun than any master's degree would've enabled me.
Politics wise? I've been center. I've fallen for right wing rhetorics. And now? I'm voting left because I learned, over the years.
You've got your whole life ahead of you. Don't pressure yourself with choosing who you'll be for the next 70 years. Choose who you want to be today and tomorrow. If you can, explore thoughts and possibilities. All you've experienced and seen gives you wisdom to gauge what will feel right eventually.