I'm just tired of everything. (TW: SH/Thoughts of Suicide)

[prisma wedge]

I'm tired of everything, i keep saying it will get better but then i always find myself || Holding a knife to my own body ||, i have a loving mother, friends online, i seriously dont know what i did, or where i went wrong. i'm just sick and tired of crying myself to sleep, tired of wanting to || cut myself ||, tired of lying to people and telling them im alright, tired of feeling horrible and disgusting because im too depressed to properly take care of myself anymore. I wish I could die so i could just escape everything, i know it would hurt people and i know its a selfish thought of me, but i just wish something horrible would happen to me so i wont suffer anymore.

i would commit || suicide || but im such a fucking miserable corward i'd probobly just freeze up and start crying like whenever i try to || cut myself||, not to mention the fact im unable to do it in a non-painful way, i just want to get out of this mess.

[lucid ibex]

if your feeling suicidal, then don't lie to people that your alright, tell them how your feeling

friends and family will support you lad

[proper escarp]

Ur not alone. You can chat with me, who also wants to commit ||suicide|| but has no reason to do so, and is a fucking miserable coward

[lucid ibex]

when your at your lowest, strive to go higher, don't stay down

[prisma wedge]

Its a trauma thing that im trying to get over, if it wasn’t I think it would be easier to find the help i need

[prisma wedge]

Yeah, i went downstairs and made myself an omlette lol

[lucid ibex]

ok, excluding breakfast -_-

[prisma wedge]

I mean, food fixes everything right?

[lucid ibex]

truth

[prisma wedge]

it certainly helps a LOT, and I had barely eaten since like, the day before yesterday

But thanks for the help, i really appreciate it

[lucid ibex]

ya no problem dude

have a good day lad!

[proper escarp]

It doesn’t help…

By experience

It might work for this resin though

RESIN!? I MEANT PERSON 😭

[lucid ibex]

lol