Freaking tf out (long rant sry) | Pridecord | Page 1

I am so scared..

I start college on the 18th. It's not far from home (probs a 30 minute drive if I stay on the speed limit the entire time) and my mom and dad told me I can stay at their places while I'm in school so I have somewhere to go. My dad's even taking me to the school later today (it's 2 am for me rn) for a tour so I know where my classrooms are.

This is all great except for the fact that I'm about to have a whole panic attack over going. Sure, the usual stuff "it's a new place with new students and teachers your gonna be nervous" but we're completely forgetting my really bad habits surrounding school.

I almost failed 7th grade if a worldwide pandemic didn't give me a free pass to the next grade
I almost failed junior/senior year of hs because I wasn't mentally well
Besides, I'm not the brightest and these classes are more advanced and I'm going into a really tough field (medical)

It's gonna happen again. I just know it and none of my family is taking it that seriously. It doesn't help that new/reoccurring mental health issues are piled on top of this. I'm not gonna make it. I'm just gonna be another dropout

I'd contact the councilor I spoke to in school but I don't have the money to pay for the sessions and my mom still hasn't paid the bill for my previous sessions (which was leftover of whatever our insurance provider didn't cover)

#Freaking tf out (long rant sry)