I fucking hate this country i wanna leave so bad ðŸ˜
half the people running this place are homophobic and racist and i just want to escape. Not just that but i'm genuinely so depressed rn.
half of my friend group are from outside of america and every time i think of one of them i get worried that they're gonna get deported.
not to mention the person i'm dating mentioned that they wanna die and i swear every day i get closer to agreeing with them
i fucking hate my life sometimes
#I am seriously way too depressed for this shit
real oasis
not to mention therapy doesn't even take anyone seriously until they're already a full-grown adult, i've seriously just quit therapy at this point, like yah sure i feel so much better after breathing for five seconds, thanks.
i genuinely wanna kill someone sometimes, and some nights i stay awake until 5am purely because watching a screen all night is easier than trying to sleep while being stuck alone with my thoughts with my siblings being just loud enough to keep me from sleeping but not interrupt any of my thoughts, and i just want to feel like i have any control.
does anyone have any advice for this that doesn't involve being an adult with my own house, or literally anything that isn't therapy?
also thanks for reading all this, even if you can't help.